Pissed off

It's Friday. Whoopee fucking doo. I am so pissed off I could probably boil an egg in my ass.

I have to work this weekend, that is the good news. I have to go home tonight - that is the bad news.

How do you describe anger. As soon as I try to find the words I go blank and hear my own voice squeeling inside my head:

FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK OFF, FUCK OFF, FUCK OFF, NO REALLY, FUCK OFF. YOU'RE A FUCKING (INSERT WORD HERE, MY CURRENT FAVOURITE IS POES - CUNT IN ENGLISH, BUT NOT AS SATISFYING AS POES). I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS, I HOPE YOU GET AN ENORMOUS PAIN IN YOUR ASS AND BALLS AT THE SAME TIME etc, etc.

I am so angry I can't even blog what happened. Combine the anger with the fact that I have never come across anything so ridiculous in my life and then you come up with a complete blank, a space filled with primal anger.

Is it considered a crime of passion when you want to kill someone with your bare hands? Or even better, bite their throat open with your teeth and watch the person bleed out? Or play saw. . .

I can't ever recall being this angry in my life. I have high blood pressure and I can feel my blood pumping behind my eyes and I'm sure that if I were to hook up to a BP machine now the news would not be good.

Violence solves nothing, right? BEEP-BEEP RICHIE (quote from IT), I think it does. I think that if I hit the shit out of my agressor I will feel better, no lies.

So what I really want to know is this: can brute anger overcome a weight and hight advantage and will I get away with murder if I fake a couple of injuries and claim self defense?

By the way, even after posting this I still don't feel better. And no, I still don't want to talk about it! ! !