My Insecurities

He thinks he's insecure? Little does he know how insecure I am and how much reassurance I need.

I'm having one of those days, you know, the one's where you feel like nobody loves you and that you should eat some worms? I dunno, my mailbox is empty, VERY empty. Freaks me out. Has the world run out of e-mail jokes? Is everyone busy today?

Clearly I am bored and irritated. I have tons of work, but I'm having a NAFI day (No Ambition Fuck-all Interest) and no matter how many times I've tried to get going it just isn't happening.

So, on the subject of relationships.... things are going gud at home. I am carefully optimistic. It seems that my shitty attitude had a lot to do with all the shit. Who knew?

I am doing my best to keep things light, when he starts getting all compied up I make a joke out of it. Seems to be doing the trick - he's realising how ridiculous he actually is. This goes a long way to making it easier to deal with. We're also having a lot more fun. We play and laugh a lot and the coolest of it all is that the kids are also part of it. The house doesn't always benefit from it, like last night after the mini food fight, but the cleaning turned out to be just as much fun as the messing. . .

Who knew that there was really hope to salvage something that means a lot to me, but scares me to death at the same time. Like I said: cautiosly optimistic!